So, this was a totally weird week. I must have been thrown off by the long weekend and not taking Max to school on Tuesday.
I am completely mortified that I actually forgot that Wednesday was early release for school. He was suppose to be out at 1:30....and I forgot. I took a nap. I set my alarm to wake me up in time to get Max at 3, like I normally do. At 1:45 my phone rang. I sleepily answered it and then woke straight up. It was Max's teacher letting me know that I had forgotten to pick up my son. I was told that Max sat down out front and cried because I was not there. OMG! I felt my heart just drop out of my chest. Thank God my friend Kim was there and brought him home.
I swore I would never do that. My family had forgotten me before at school. It was one of the worst feelings ever. I did not want to be that mom. I guess it happens sometimes. I suppose I should not be so hard on my family, but still, it was a horrible feeling.
I still feel awful.....I probably will for a long time. Matt says it is just some thing to learn from. I am sure that it was a mistake on my part. It was on my calendar, but I was so busy getting the rest of life together that I forgot to look. My calendar is now color coded and I look at it each day. I pray that I never do that again.
I love my kids and I want them to know that I love them and always will. I really hope they know that I will always be here for them.
Mine are grown up now but not in my head if you get my drift.
ReplyDeletePlease don't continue to feel awful. Most mum's have done the same or something equally as Oh My God My child will never forgive me and I have traumatised them for life. But in all honesty, you will remember far longer than he and when he's grown up he will probably tease you about it. I doubt whilst the incident is so fresh in your mind that the horrible feeling will abate but in time it will.
My mother forgot me on more than one occassion and yes it was a horrible feeling but I am not damaged for life because of it.
You sound to me like a loving wonderful mother who does the very best you can. This wasn't a deliberate thing it was an honest mistake.
I'm still learning and mine are 20 and 18 with a step-son who is 28.
Oh sweetie, don't be too hard on yourself. Poor Max and poor Mama, too!
ReplyDeleteI did the same thing one day. I was sitting at Sonic enjoying my lunch waiting for the clock to reach time to pick my son up at 3. Phone rang, teacher said "did you forget it was early release". I felt horrible. I also took my son in on a day that it was teacher workday. Those things just happen.
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